Posts Tagged "Miracles"

Conceding Christmas Part Two: The Response

Posted by on Dec 21, 2012 in Christian living, Featured, The Blog | 7 comments

Conceding Christmas is the story I wrote about our Christmas in 2004, less than two months after Kyle was diagnosed with leukemia. This blog is one of my favorites.

Here is Part Two. 

Conceding Christmas

I curl up in a ball. Think about that verse from Matthew 11. “Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Do I believe it? Can I live it?

Release him. Trust me.

Every moment I don’t let go, fear eats away at me. I live in bondage to the terror that Kyle will die and leave me. I can’t hold out any longer on the tugging of my heart.

“Okay, Lord. Okay. Your ways are not my ways.” Deep inside, where I cling to Kyle, I force myself to relax. I imagine picking him up, kissing him softly on his cheek, and walking over to Jesus. It takes me a moment to offer him up and hand him over. His weight leaves my arms and my heart stutters. Kicks into overdrive.

I almost grab him back.

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Conceding Christmas Part One: The Call

Posted by on Dec 20, 2012 in Christian living, Featured, The Blog | 7 comments

Conceding Christmas is one of my favorite past posts and tells the story I wrote about our Christmas in 2004, less than two months after Kyle was diagnosed with leukemia. 

Here is Part One:

Conceding Christmas

3 AM

I burrow deeper under the covers, the bed large and lonely. Thirteen days until Christmas, but I’m not planning a celebration.

Arranging a funeral seems more likely.

My husband stayed at the hospital tonight with our ten-year-old son. This time, Kyle struggles with fever, low blood counts, and multiple infections—staph in his central line and fungus in his left lung.

The neighbor’s Christmas lights shine through my curtains, pulsing red and green. An ache sets in around my temples. I’ve been lying here for hours, watching the numbers on the clock glow and change, trying to ignore God tugging at my heart.

Give Kyle to me.

My chest squeezes in response to the words. “Lord, let me sleep.”

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You Must Ask: Day Three

Posted by on Sep 12, 2012 in 21 Days of Prayer, Christian living, Featured | 4 comments

Prayer Freedom’s devotional. READ IT HERE. We truly believe that God is moving in the lives of people around the world. Today our guest writer  is  Gail Morris an amazing woman of God who loves bird watching. Did you know that 76-100% of female survivors of sex trafficking report being physically assaulted and 67-10% of the same group report being sexually assaulted while they were trafficked?

 

My Prayer

James 1:2-8

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.”

Dear Kyle,

This was the verse I marked in my Bible that first year when you were so sick. It reminds me we don’t have because we don’t

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